I’d been feeling not quite myself. Aside from being tired physically, I had been fighting my emotions, pushing them aside and pretending as if I was ok.
It’s the holidays and I am away from home, I anticipated the loneliness and a few tears. I’ve tried lifting my spirits by listening to Christmas music but it’s still not the same. There is no place like home for the holidays.
I needed something, I needed a way to release all these emotions without becoming a waterfall of tears. Yoga was the answer. Skype yoga with my studio in NJ, my wonderful instructor, my parents, brother, and a room full of advanced yogis.
I waited all day Wednesday to unroll my mat in my small room. With a 12-hour time difference between the east coast and Thailand, I was fortunate enough that the 9:15 Wednesday morning class would work for our virtual adventure. I was even more fortunate that the owner, also my wonderful instructor, Nancy, was willing to let me join her class from the other side of the globe!
By the time I settled into shavasana and rolled to my right side, I felt like my old self again. I was filled with love and happiness. I went to my mat and I left it all there, all the emotions I had been trying to suppress. Sadness, loneliness, doubt, and fear. I just let go, all the while reconnecting with my home and a few very special people in my life.
Amy Weintruab, founder of LifeForce Yoga Healing Institute, said “the yoga mat is a good place to turn when talk therapy and antidepressants aren’t enough.” Well said Amy. I totally agree.
P.S. Wednesday (12.21) was also the winter solstice.